My Story

Reflecting on my journey this morning has brought me into such a state of gratitude that I cannot quite convey it into words.  To KNOW this sense of peace and well being is the greatest gift.  No longer, am I at war with the world and myself.  So I post this to let others know that there is hope.

April 14th, 2015 - my life was officially in shambles.  While facing multiple felony charges, I was in rehab - only because jail was the alternative.  My career as a pharmacist had abruptly ended and my pharmacist license was in question.  A divorce seemed inevitable and with it the loss of custody of my 18 month-old daughter.  Suicide seemed like a viable option... I was at rock bottom.

Humble.  I am so grateful for that rock bottom because it was the point that everything changed.  Finally, I was wiling to do the things that were suggested of me if I wanted to recovery.  Then, I was humble enough to accept help.  Learning I was a mess mentally, physically, and spiritually brought me focus.  At last, I was shown that there was hope and a way out.

Today, I live one day at a time surrounded by people in recovery who have supported and loved me when I could not love myself.  They gave me a solution to my problems and a way to do things differently.  My life began anew 6 years ago to this day.


Restored.  My marriage is not only intact - it is thriving, and my daughter has never experienced her mother under the influence of drugs or alcohol.  My career is going great, I have the best job a pharmacist could ask for.  We just built our dream house on the river.  My family is happy and healthy.  I have a wonderful community of women in recovery.  My life has been restored and then some.  My purpose to carry the message is very clear.

Growth.  I have a sponsor, sponsor women, go to meetings, and have worked the steps more than once.  Continually, I grow in my relationship and understanding of God.  I just keep doing the next right thing.  One thing I know for certain is that if I don't keep doing what I'm doing that I will lose it all again - but for the Grace of God, there go I...

"If we are painstaking about this phase of our development, we will be amazed before we are halfway through.  A new freedom and happiness will become known to us.  We will not regret the past nor wish to shut the door on it.  We will comprehend the word serenity and we will know peace.  No matter how far down the scale we have gone, we will see how our experience can benefit others.

That feeling of uselessness and self pity will disappear.  We will lose interest in selfish things and gain interest in our fellows.  Self seeking will slip away.  Our whole attitude and outlook upon life will change.

Fear of people and economic insecurity will leave us.  Intuitively, we will know how to handle situations that used to baffle us.  Suddenly, we will realize that God is doing for us what we could not do for ourselves. 

 

Are these extravagant promises?  We think not.  They are being fulfilled among us - sometimes quickly, sometimes slowly.  They will always materialize if we work for them."


The AA promises

unnamed.jpg

Recovery Story of the Month


My name is Megan and today marks 6 years of sobriety...